January

So much has changed for me in the last few weeks. I feel like I have become a totally different person...for the better. No this didn't happen overnight, it has most definitely been a gradual change that began at the end of 2009, but this change is really starting to stick. Its almost like parts of who I used to be are starting to come out of the woodwork. The good parts :)

I'm learning to fight off the bad and embrace the positive even when it seems daunting. That has to be the worst part. No wait, patience, patience is the worst part. I'm not going to get ahead of myself here - I haven't gotten the patience thing to stick just yet but I'm working on it.

I'm happier. I love. I cry for real things. I haven't cried for things that mattered, for reality, in a long time. My tears were selfish and didn't make sense. I still have my moments of weakness when a selfish tear falls. I ignore them.

I pray with my heart and not my mouth.

I miss this girl.